Pour Your Heart Out

Linking up once again with Shell from Things I Can't Say...http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/

I am supposed to be pouring my heart out, but I really can't find any one thing that I am ready to pour my heart out about.  I know this is a shock, because in my world there is always something that is happening and I need to vent, talk about.

I guess I am just going to talk about a couple of things that are happening right now.

First, I am not good with change (any kind of change).  I look like I can deal with it and I act like it doesn't bother me but on the inside I am cringing, crying, stomping my feet and acting like a big baby.  I like things to stay just as they have been because I know how everything works, and I feel comfortable with everything. 

With this being said my life has some big (they are big to me) changes coming up...

My dad who has always lived relatively close to me is now moving further away (not far but just further)

My mom who has always lived close by and spent alot of time with me and my kids now is moving also (not far just moving) and has stopped spending as much time with us.  I know this is nothing personal, and she is still the best Mom, and Mimi but it's just different.

And as you all probably already know my oldest daughter turned 16 in May, she got her license her car and I guess her freedom.  She has turned into a very independent, responsible, and mature young woman.  I am extremely proud, but I miss her needing me.

My "better half" works out of state and once again football season is upon us.  Which means he will be gone 5 days a week and we will only see him long enough for him to get clean clothes and take off again. 

and

My youngest is starting her second year of preschool and has grown up soooo much.  I miss the baby stage, heck I even miss the toddler stage.  She has become very independent and doesn't need me to do very much for her (I still have to pick up after her). 

So it seems that there are alot of changes happening and the more I want thing to stay the same, the more they change.  But I will put on my big girls pants (no jokes needed) and I will deal with everything, just like I always do.

This is whats happening in my world...hope you deal better with changes than I do.

School's Out!!!

It's official I have finished all of my summer classes.  I can now sit back and enjoy the rest of the summer.  However, my youngest starts school in 7 days so that doesn't leave much time.  But I will do my best to make August fun and memorable for my kids.

Now I just need to decide what to do...

I am not a parent who thinks that children should be entertained 24/7 but I would like to do some special things.  It's hard to find things that I enjoy, that my 16 year old enjoys, and that my 4 year old enjoys.  Sometimes it seems that is an impossible task.  But I am up for it!!!

I will enjoy myself and my daughters will enjoy themselves (even if I have to make them)!!!

So I am off to begin my search of things to do with my wonderful girls.

Any suggestions???

To Marry or Not to Marry????

In my house there have been conversations for many, many, many years about marriage.  To marry or not to marry that is the question!!!

A little back story...

My "better half" and I have been together for almost 7 years.  We have the house(s) (we currently own 2 homes with 2 mortgages...damn economy but that's another blog), we have the daughters, we have the car payments, we have all the monthly bills...(I could go on but I won't...)

So there has been some debate, I mean discussions regarding marriage.  I think that we should at least be engaged (yes I want the damn ring, not so much the wedding but I really want the ring, come to think of it maybe I should just go buy a ring, because I have no need for the actual proposal or wedding)...Does it make me a little or alot strange that I have no desire for any of the over the top girlyness that weddings bring????

He thinks that things are good the way they are and not that he doesn't love me and want to spend the rest of his life with me but money would be more wisely spent on other things...such as college for the kids, retirement funds, saving for the future basically.  Did I mention that he is obsessive about money.  When it comes to money, he plans, and plan, and plans.  He tends to be a workaholic and tries as hard as he can without killing himself to give us a great life.  Which he does very well.

I love him and I know he loves me so is it really a big deal if I have a ring or not?  Does that piece of paper actually have any significance in our otherwise happy existence?  Are there still really people who can't believe that people like us wouldn't "just do it already"?  Well the answer to the last one is yes, and I have met some of them (they are not pleasant people).

So whats your take on this situation????

What do you think about marriage???? 

No I really do want your honest opinions.

Fawk You Friday

It seems that the only posts I can manage lately are the Fawk You Friday...so here it goes.
Check out Christy over at http://www.boobiesbabiesandablog.com/  she is great!!!

Fawk You Friday

1.  Fawk You to the Dad's out there that have no guilt going and doing something that doesn't involve the kids.  I sadly am not like that, I feel guilty if I don't take them with me while doing something fun.

2.  Fawk You heat... I know I was begging for summer but dang this 110 degree heat index is a bit much...wonder if its that global warming everyone was talking about?

3.  Fawk You childhood immunizations I had to take my baby (well she is 4) to the doctor for a check-up and they gave her 5 shots!  Well without a doubt we had D-R-A-M-A she kicked, screamed, and the tears were flowing.  After that we got to deal with fever, sore legs, and more D-R-A-M-A.

and finally...

4.  Fawk You to the oral surgeon who is removing my oldest daughters wisdom teeth.  Really 2 grand for you to take out 4 teeth.  And this is on top of the 5 grand we already spent on braces.  Her mouth is worth more than a nice used car at this point.  However, we will pay for it with a smile because I love my daughter and her smile is priceless to me.  But I may come home and cry afterward thinking of all the purses I could have bought for 2 GRAND!!!

Hope you have a great week.

Fawk You Friday

I am linking up with Boobies, Babies & A Blog http://www.boobiesbabiesandablog.com/ Click on this link and check her out.  She is one of my must reads!!!

So here is my list of Fawk You's...
(I have tons this week but I am narrowing it down to just a couple of big ones...)

1.  Fawk Sleep...I can't sleep when I want to but when I can't sleep (because of stuff to do) I could sleep for hours.

2.  Being an Adult -- I want to go back to summers when I was a kid. With no responsibility and just fun all day long.

3.  Housework/Homework/and everything else that takes my energy...I have no energy/desire to do anything.

And finally a big fat FAWK YOU to:

Casey Anthony...I am sick and tired of her getting all this media attention.  You killed your daughter and got away with it...now just go crawl into hole and don't let anyone see your face again. 
P.S. I will not watch a movie/television special or read a book that she will profit from.

So this is the short list...

Hope your week has been better than mine!

Lazy

Well as you can tell I have not posted a blog in over a week...why you ask?  Well let me explain...Oh that's right I have no explanation at all, I mean none, can't even begin to make one up...

I am just lazy, and when I say lazy I mean lazy...as in not wanting to do anything. 

I don't want to blog...

I don't want to do schoolwork...

I don't want to play with the kids...

I don't want to do a damn thing...

You know how some people suffer from seasonal depression in the winter?  Well I think I am suffering from seasonal depression in the summer.  How is this even possible?  I love summertime!!! I love the sun!!!

What is going on with me????

I am really trying to get out of this funk, so please just hang with me.  I promise to post some funny stories about things that have happened whether or not I wanted to be there when they did.

But for now I am going to continue to make myself put on my big girl pants and suck it up.  Maybe if I pretend I want to do things, I will start believing that I actually do.

We Want to Know Wednesday!

Today I am linking up with We Want To Know Wednesday...go over and check them out...
http://confessionsfromanimplusiveaddict.blogspot.com/

And now for the questions...

1. Name five of your favorite new blogs that you're reading.There are a couple of blogs that I stalk regularly...here they are Amy @ http://spreadalittlethin.blogspot.com/Shell @ http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/Holly @ http://www.notaperfectmomsblog.com/There are many more but check these ones out first.2. When you were a young child or teenager, did you have an idea of how many children you wanted and what their names would be?  Did you follow through on your ideas?  When I was younger I hated kids.  I didn't want to babysit or entertain any child.  I was 12 when my nephew was born and I thought he was just a pain in my a** (I have since gotten over this), but I love my girls and would do it all over again.3. What is the silliest thing you fight with someone about?  It could be your spouse, sibling, parents, co-worker, etc.  I tend to fight with anybody about anything.  I should have been a lawyer because I LOVE to argue. The silliest thing are probably when I argue with my 4 year old (yes I do argue with her)4. What is your favorite scent that others may not find very nice? Ex. gasoline, sweat from your sweetie, etc.  I don't really have any crazy scents because my nose is super sensitive...I can't stand any really strong smells.5. What are your thoughts on plastic surgery? (Have you had it? Want it? Regrets?)  I haven't had any...but I totally would.  There are alot of things I would fix if I had the money.  Whatever make you happy!!!



This was fun thanks for taking the time to read my answers!

Fawk You Friday

I am linking up with Boobies, Babies, & A Blog for Fawk You Friday.  If you haven't checked out this blog you should click the link immediately http://www.boobiesbabiesandablog.com/

Alright so this is my first time with Fawk You Friday so here it goes....

Fawk You Summer vacation...my kids need a break from me as much as I need a break from them...

Fawk You "free" summer activities for kids...you end up costing me more than if I was to just pay for the damn activity.

Fawk You Mother Nature you keep teasing us with summer and then taking it right back away.  I want a full day of sun NOW!!!

Fawk You well no Fawk Me because my house is NEVER clean and I am sick and tired of cleaning it.

Tell me how was your week?????