TO BLOG OR NOT????

I quit blogging for multiple reasons...but mainly because I'm lazy...

I really feel like this was healthy outlet and I have no idea why I let myself quit!  The only reason I can come up with is I am a quitter!!!

I tend to quit more things than I finish and I really hate that about myself.  I would love to be one of the people who follows through with whatever they start no matter what it is or how much they hate it.

I have no idea when or why I started quitting things I just know this has become a pattern or habit and I cannot seem to break it.  There are certain things that I don't actually quit but will continually want to quit and complain about while still doing them. (does that even make sense???)

Well in the last 9 month or however long it has been there have been BIG changes going on.

I WILL start blogging again and telling anyone who cares (probably just me) all about them.  But I think this is enough for my first step towards blogging again.

Procrastination

I am ready to admit it....

I AM A PROCRASTINATOR

there I said it, and now I feel like such a weight has been lifted.

I put everything off until the last minute.

I put schoolwork off...
I put housework off...
I put life off...
I put EVERYTHING off.

and then I get pissed because I feel like I have no time, and no help, and everyone ends up pissing me off.

Why do I do this you ask?

I.HAVE.NO.FREAKING.IDEA.

I can't stand the fact that I do this.

and

I especially can't stand other people who do this (yes I judge them, and don't you judge me)

So here I am asking for help

HELP!!!!

How do I become the organized, responsible, well put together mom, woman, person I crave to be?  I really want to be that person!!!  I want to have more time, and still have accomplished the things that need to be done (and I don't mean in a unrealistic way).  I don't want to be the person who puts everything off until the last minute.  I don't. I don't. I don't.

Am I alone in this, or does any have any suggestions for me.

(by the way don't judge the spelling in this post...my laptop is screwing with me)

Friendships

I am curious to know what you all think...

How do you know when an acquaintance has become a friend????

and

How do you know when friendships have just faded and are better left by the wayside????

Recently I have had a couple of these experiences where I am not really sure if this person wants to be considered a friend or maybe they are just being polite, or I am just in the right place at the right time, and they feel like talking.

I also have a couple of friends who I thought I was fairly close with who now seem to not have the time of day for me...ok maybe I am not that broken up about this friendship because it was pretty one sided anyways, but none the less it was a friendship.

I am not the type of girls who has a ton of friends especially girlfriends.  I am not very outgoing, and I would most of the time rather not be surrounded by "snarky" women, and most women seem to be "snarky".  Of course if I feel really comfortable I can become a little snarky, but I do want more to talk about than just the usual gossip.  So this typically doesn't make me many female friends.  Oh yeah, and I do not put myself out there!!!!

No I am just rambling and completely away from my original questions.

So please leave me a message and give me your take on friendship.

Pour Your Heart Out

Linking up once again with Shell from Things I Can't Say...http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/

I am supposed to be pouring my heart out, but I really can't find any one thing that I am ready to pour my heart out about.  I know this is a shock, because in my world there is always something that is happening and I need to vent, talk about.

I guess I am just going to talk about a couple of things that are happening right now.

First, I am not good with change (any kind of change).  I look like I can deal with it and I act like it doesn't bother me but on the inside I am cringing, crying, stomping my feet and acting like a big baby.  I like things to stay just as they have been because I know how everything works, and I feel comfortable with everything. 

With this being said my life has some big (they are big to me) changes coming up...

My dad who has always lived relatively close to me is now moving further away (not far but just further)

My mom who has always lived close by and spent alot of time with me and my kids now is moving also (not far just moving) and has stopped spending as much time with us.  I know this is nothing personal, and she is still the best Mom, and Mimi but it's just different.

And as you all probably already know my oldest daughter turned 16 in May, she got her license her car and I guess her freedom.  She has turned into a very independent, responsible, and mature young woman.  I am extremely proud, but I miss her needing me.

My "better half" works out of state and once again football season is upon us.  Which means he will be gone 5 days a week and we will only see him long enough for him to get clean clothes and take off again. 

and

My youngest is starting her second year of preschool and has grown up soooo much.  I miss the baby stage, heck I even miss the toddler stage.  She has become very independent and doesn't need me to do very much for her (I still have to pick up after her). 

So it seems that there are alot of changes happening and the more I want thing to stay the same, the more they change.  But I will put on my big girls pants (no jokes needed) and I will deal with everything, just like I always do.

This is whats happening in my world...hope you deal better with changes than I do.