Procrastination

I am ready to admit it....

I AM A PROCRASTINATOR

there I said it, and now I feel like such a weight has been lifted.

I put everything off until the last minute.

I put schoolwork off...
I put housework off...
I put life off...
I put EVERYTHING off.

and then I get pissed because I feel like I have no time, and no help, and everyone ends up pissing me off.

Why do I do this you ask?

I.HAVE.NO.FREAKING.IDEA.

I can't stand the fact that I do this.

and

I especially can't stand other people who do this (yes I judge them, and don't you judge me)

So here I am asking for help

HELP!!!!

How do I become the organized, responsible, well put together mom, woman, person I crave to be?  I really want to be that person!!!  I want to have more time, and still have accomplished the things that need to be done (and I don't mean in a unrealistic way).  I don't want to be the person who puts everything off until the last minute.  I don't. I don't. I don't.

Am I alone in this, or does any have any suggestions for me.

(by the way don't judge the spelling in this post...my laptop is screwing with me)

Friendships

I am curious to know what you all think...

How do you know when an acquaintance has become a friend????

and

How do you know when friendships have just faded and are better left by the wayside????

Recently I have had a couple of these experiences where I am not really sure if this person wants to be considered a friend or maybe they are just being polite, or I am just in the right place at the right time, and they feel like talking.

I also have a couple of friends who I thought I was fairly close with who now seem to not have the time of day for me...ok maybe I am not that broken up about this friendship because it was pretty one sided anyways, but none the less it was a friendship.

I am not the type of girls who has a ton of friends especially girlfriends.  I am not very outgoing, and I would most of the time rather not be surrounded by "snarky" women, and most women seem to be "snarky".  Of course if I feel really comfortable I can become a little snarky, but I do want more to talk about than just the usual gossip.  So this typically doesn't make me many female friends.  Oh yeah, and I do not put myself out there!!!!

No I am just rambling and completely away from my original questions.

So please leave me a message and give me your take on friendship.

Where I Have Been

Everyone let me tell you where I have been....

NOWHERE

I have had a HUGE case of the lazies...

I have felt overwhelmed with every aspect of my life...

and I have just been in a nasty funk.

This is nothing new, this normally happens to me from time to time, but once in a while it takes a little work to get me back into the swing of things.

I am hoping that with school starting again for me and the girls, a new routine will be established and that might help me gain some sort of stability. 

Life is good and should be enjoyed so that is now my mission...(well while doing all the shit work too laundry, cleaning, cooking...)

So I am back and will try my best not to disappear again!!!!

Fawk You Friday

Linking up with Boobies again...check her out http://www.boobiesbabiesandablog.com/ 

(she is pee your pants funny)

This week my big FAWK YOU's go to....

The construction men who are building a house behind mine. They think it's okay to work from 6 am until 9 or 9:30 pm.

Back to school shopping - why the hell is everything so expensive????

College Textbook - $200 for a book...really???  But I will pay it because I have no other choice.

Ants - yes those pesky little things that travel in hundreds.  They have infested my kitchen and no matter what I do they survive.

So people there is my Fawk You's for this week, let me know what has been pissing  you off.

10 Lessons

Alright I am going to attempt to conquer one of Mama Kat's writing prompts this week!!!

Here it is...

10 Lessons your child could teach you.

Since I have 2 daughters I may alternate back and forth because as you may know they think I am quite possibly the stupidest human in the world at times.

1.  Patience - my younger daughter has more patience than my older one, however they both have way more patience than I could ever hope to have.

2.  Persistence - they are both like animals when they get an idea into their head they will not let go!!!

3. Money Saving Tips - neither one will spend a penny of their money (but they will spend mine very freely)

4. How to stop and enjoy the moment - Kids grow fast, too fast.  I need to be reminded to stop and enjoy them.

5. How to stop worry all the time about everything - My kids have no worries (exactly how it should be for kids) but watching them enjoy something big or small reminds me that my life is pretty darn good.

6. Selflessness - my girls have taught me that it is no longer about me and my wants (or needs).  I would do anything to make sure my kids are taken care of, and have every they want.  When I was younger I never wanted kids, mainly because I was too selfish, but now I can't imagine a life without my girls.  They are my world and I love that I have them.  I wouldn't go back to my selfish ways for anything.

7. Cleaning - it is IMPOSSIBLE to have a completely clean house when you have children.  Don't even waster your time trying.  Pick up as you go and get someone to take them occasionally so that you can really clean.  Otherwise you are wasting you time and energy, because as soon as you clean one area there will be children waiting to mess it right back up.

8. No matter how hard you try at some point you will become "one of those parents".  Your children will act up when you don't want them to.  Your children will embarrass you at some point.  Your child will say something that will mortify you.  Your child will do all of these things, and you just have to deal with it. I never thought I would become "that mom" however, it has happened on many occasions.

9. Noise Levels - It never fails that when you sit down to watch something on television that you want, is the exact moment your child will decide to pick up the loudest toy they own and play with it right next to you.  They will also decide to scream, sing, or anything else that will make it impossible for you to watch, focus, or enjoy anything that doesn't give them your full and complete attention.

10. L-O-V-E my kids have taught me the meaning of true unconditional love.  Not only how much I love them but how much they love me.  A child's love for their parents is the most amazing feeling, they don't care what you have or what you can give them, they just want to be loved.  I don't think I could love my girls anymore than I already do, but then something happens and my heart gets bigger and I realize that my love for them will always fill my heart no matter how big it gets.

My girls have taught me many more lessons but these were the 10 that came to mind.  I would love to hear what you have learned from your kids.

And here they are the loves of my life my amazing girls.