Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Doing it all on my own



Okay I am linking up with Shell over at http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/.  Check her out she is GREAT!!!

Anyway here it goes...

My "better half" works out of State so when he is working he is completely and totally out of the picture.  Meaning he can't help me in any way, shape or form.  This SUCKS!!!!

When we met I knew that this was his career choice and I grew to be okay with it.  (it was pretty rocky for awhile)  But once we had a child this whole working away from home thing became a bigger pain then I ever expected.  He misses ALOT, and I know this disappoints him as much as it does us.  But the part that is bothering me right now is when he is gone I get absolutely NO breaks from the kids.

I know he is working hard while away, and it sucks living out of a suitcase, however, do NOT call me and complain that you are bored, tired, hungry or anything else.  I am here with these kids being tested regularly, being asked to cook, drive, etc. etc. etc.  I do not need to hear your quite hotel room, and that you are trying to decide whether to go out to dinner with friends or order room service. 

Just once I would like to be the one to call home and complain that my hotel room is too quite and I can't decide what order and have delivered to my room, then eat and leave my tray for someone else to pick up once I have finished.

Just once I want to have the ability to be bored and try to figure out what I want to do, and not have to include a moody 16 year old, and a hyper 4 year old in my plans.  Just once I want to worry about ME and nobody else.

Is this all too much to ask for?  Yeah, it is but I can dream right?

Thank you for letting me get all of this out, now I must go and finish cooking, cleaning, and dealing with my 4 year old who never lets me get bored!!!

P.S.  I really do love my kids and "better half".  And I know just how lucky I really am.



4 comments:

Heather H said...

My husband used to do that when he moved for a job and we stayed behind to sell the house. I wanted to beat him. The worst was when his dad would call me and tell me how bad I should feel for my husband because "he is down there, all alone." That was his choice and it's not like I was sitting around, sipping margaritas! LOL

I'm sorry you're having to deal with it! I couldn't imagine handling attitude AND non-stop energy 24/7! Hats off to you, Mama!

JoAnn said...

Heather H.
Thank for letting me know I am not alone in my frustration ;)
JoAnn

Nikke said...

No matter how much you love your better half and your children, every one needs some time to themselves and not worry about anything.
I don't have any children yet and don't know how a lot of moms do it. Kudos!!

Dysfunctional Mom said...

We all need to vent sometimes, don't feel bad! My exhusband was a truck driver and I felt like a single mom who just happened to be married. It was tough, I feel your pain!

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