Wednesday, July 27, 2011
I am supposed to be pouring my heart out, but I really can't find any one thing that I am ready to pour my heart out about. I know this is a shock, because in my world there is always something that is happening and I need to vent, talk about.
I guess I am just going to talk about a couple of things that are happening right now.
First, I am not good with change (any kind of change). I look like I can deal with it and I act like it doesn't bother me but on the inside I am cringing, crying, stomping my feet and acting like a big baby. I like things to stay just as they have been because I know how everything works, and I feel comfortable with everything.
With this being said my life has some big (they are big to me) changes coming up...
My dad who has always lived relatively close to me is now moving further away (not far but just further)
My mom who has always lived close by and spent alot of time with me and my kids now is moving also (not far just moving) and has stopped spending as much time with us. I know this is nothing personal, and she is still the best Mom, and Mimi but it's just different.
And as you all probably already know my oldest daughter turned 16 in May, she got her license her car and I guess her freedom. She has turned into a very independent, responsible, and mature young woman. I am extremely proud, but I miss her needing me.
My "better half" works out of state and once again football season is upon us. Which means he will be gone 5 days a week and we will only see him long enough for him to get clean clothes and take off again.
My youngest is starting her second year of preschool and has grown up soooo much. I miss the baby stage, heck I even miss the toddler stage. She has become very independent and doesn't need me to do very much for her (I still have to pick up after her).
So it seems that there are alot of changes happening and the more I want thing to stay the same, the more they change. But I will put on my big girls pants (no jokes needed) and I will deal with everything, just like I always do.
This is whats happening in my world...hope you deal better with changes than I do.